February 1, 2008...9:20 pm

Through My Eyes (To my son, Julius)

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Perceptions change with different viewpoints perceived deception

or acceptance to truth lies in whose eyes you’re in possession

yours or mine

My eyes see repressed emotions causing depression stressing

over my decisions wishing I could change life’s direction

Questions, answers I will provide

just take this journey with me and try to see life through my eyes

The visitations, the lack of cohabitation not your fault

the realization that she and I could not exist therefore as

three would have been devastation, a detriment to your maturation

growth process

I understand that doesn’t make up for your lost firsts crawl, walk, talk

I just thought separated we could remain close

Determined to travel the long distance out of this situation

We’d have to make the most

I’d provide for you financially.  Make sure you have what you need

As my seed you are my responsibility

Four years later as I reflect I’ve come to accept

That I made a grave mistake

At times the distance has been too great to travel

Emotionally and physically

As my life unravels

My heart aches cause I miss you huggin’ and kissin’ me

And when you called me by my first name, damn! it hit me

I should have used my heart, not my mind

Four years later no matter how hard I try

I still can’t turn back time, I’ve come to realize

we both hurt, we both cry

and that ain’t changing no matter how you look at it

through your eyes or mine.

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